I can think of so many times that I’ve gotten to a darker, sadder place in my life. Where I’ve been left unsure of myself, scared about what could possibly come next, and even wanting to give up on humanity all together. But every time I’ve been able to count on at least one of them to be there for me. And for that I am eternally thankful.
Heck, just two weeks ago when it seemed like my life was crumbling down on me, I spend my afternoon and part of my evening with my friend Daphne. Do you know what she did? Well of course you don’t but you’re about to find out. She said a prayer with me. Honestly, that was probably one of the most touching things I’ve ever been through with any of my friends. I damn near cried when we did because it was so sincere. It was so nice to just sit down and focus my energy to God. Being Catholic, I haven’t been the absolute best to my religion.
Did I renounce my religion? Never! I just haven’t been the best at it. Yes I do follow the skipping of meat on Fridays during lent among other things. But. I don’t know. I just lost touch with it over the years. It felt nice to do so after so many years and especially with a friend. As horrible as this is going to sound, whenever I’ve prayed with my mother or even with my whole family (cousins and stuff to) when we get together to grace food, it always felt so insincere from the group as a whole. It isn’t the same sort of atmosphere. Why? I don’t have a clue but I wish it didn’t feel that way.
Praying with Daphne was so nice. I felt a very close and real connection going on while we prayed. It really affected me. And I don’t think I’ll ever be able to express how grateful I am for that.Maybe we can attend another church service together (see, we did when she was in my quinceanera court technically…lol) ? :3
Since none of you guys know, Daphne is a very close friend of mine. Sweet in every way. She is probably the definition of a pocket full of sunshine. I think she is also a main reason as to why I’ve become so positive about life overtime.Either way, all through middle school and high school, she has been my human diary. If something happened to me, she most likely knows. I used to keep a diary/journal at that time, but talking to her was much more affective than writing down what I was going though. She’d always have a sensible response and reasoning for everything. She always found a way to put together what I wanted to hear, what I needed to hear, and advice on what the next steps were to get past it.
I really do love her. She’s a special sort of person that everyone needs in their lives.
P.S. If you were wondering how our prayer session on my issues worked out, they all worked out in the best possible way. Was it because of the prayer? Whose to know. All I can say is thank God I met and became so close to someone as wonderful as her.
I love..........My friends, especially one particular panda....
ReplyDeleteHey Keira, the last blog you put up really meant a lot to me. I thank God that I have you in my life, too, and that He allowed us to meet and become close friends in middle school...Heck, I am thankful we are still friends now!
I am not perfect, and like I told at the end of that day we hung out, I still have a lot to improve on as a friend and as a person. And you know what? A lot of that I am learning/re-learning from you. What I mean to say is, life is not all about me and my problems and my issues--There are amazing people like you that God has put before me to simply live life and grow with. So many times I was wrapped up in my own world, but it was really always so great to receive a text or call from you saying, "hey, how are you?" Your genuine care for me and all of your friends is something I truly admire about you.
I can't fully explain what our friendship means to me. But I can try...
Our friendship means: long nights spent on the phone; walking across bridges, boroughs, and everywhere; laughing and talking about everything; finding comfort in each other's smile, voice, presence. I thank you so much for all of those things. I thank you for always reaching out to me, never letting our friendship fade, and whether you know it or not, treating and being there for your friends in the exact way that God wants you to be.
So you see...I think you are far from being a "bad" Christian. Trust me, girl, we all fall short! =]
I love you so much, and hearing that praying together really touched you made my heart soar. And I don't know, it just seemed like something we really needed to do at the time. ALL the time. You have me and the One who places obstacles in your path to help you see you need Him and others; the One who helps you see that you are strong enough to get through anything.
I can't wait until the next time we hang out, and for sure, until the next time we go to Church together! That will be (one of) our next, awesome experiences!!
One last thing: you have been my human diary in a lot of ways, too. I admire so much about you, Keira Luanna Graham, and I think you are BEAUTIFUL!!!
Talk to you soon =]
PS. I cannot wait to read more of what you have to write!!!!! Is there any way I can follow you without getting a blogspot? I will check it our more...Also, what a witty title! lol!!
I loved this post.
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http://operationpretty.blogspot.com/